There are days where you think that your life is just one big load of crap. This past year, I've thought my life was worth nothing. What can it really be worth when everything you once believed in went up into smoke. Everything you wanted was a failure. Everything you thought was important was a lie. I'm just extremely bummed out to have to move back to an environment where all I get is negativity and discouragement. People around you exaggerating your situation to be the end of the world and that you are sure to be doomed forever -- but of course they just want the best for you. Thanks... How are you expected to get on with life if you aren't recommended to do anything? Like every idea is stupid. ????! What am I supposed to do now honestly? Sometimes you think you know what's best for a person when in actuality all you're doing is delaying time and giving a bunch of useless advice. Why can't I have people around me that are actually USEFUL and realistic...?
I've always thought that I was the type of person perfectly capable of standing alone through anything. I never liked needy people and what not. It wasn't until I had been able to rely on someone and truly felt that I was set, did I start to lose my sense of independence and stability. Now I'm just a hot mess. It's always easy to rely on someone since it gives you a sense of safety but what should be more important is to still be ok when the someone isn't there anymore or even temporarily gone. Needless to say, I'm having a hard time with that right now. Seems like I can't deal with anything alone anymore. What the hell's wrong with me??!
